Don’t Read the Comments by Eric Smith

Published: 28 January 2020 (print)/28 January 2020 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Inkyard Press/HarperAudio
Pages: 368/8 hrs and 32 mins
Narrator: Richa Shukla Moorjani and Sunil Malhotra
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3.75 Stars

Divya Sharma is a queen. Or she is when she’s playing Reclaim the Sun, the year’s hottest online game. Divya–better known as popular streaming gamer D1V–regularly leads her #AngstArmada on quests through the game’s vast and gorgeous virtual universe. But for Divya, this is more than just a game. Out in the real world, she’s trading her rising-star status for sponsorships to help her struggling single mum pay the rent.

 Gaming is basically Aaron Jericho’s entire life. Much to his mother’s frustration, Aaron has zero interest in becoming a doctor like her and spends his free time writing games for a local developer. At least he can escape into Reclaim the Sun–and with a trillion worlds to explore, disappearing should be easy. But to his surprise, he somehow ends up on the same remote planet as celebrity gamer D1V.

 At home, Divya and Aaron grapple with their problems alone, but in the game, they have each other to face infinite new worlds … and the growing legion of trolls populating them. Soon the virtual harassment seeps into reality when a group called the Vox Populi begin launching real-world doxxing campaigns, threatening Aaron’s dreams and Divya’s actual life. The online trolls think they can drive her out of the game, but everything and everyone Divya cares about is on the line…

 And she isn’t going down without a fight.

This was a curious read because it was interesting, underwhelming, and good. I enjoyed some bits a lot, while other bits could have been fleshed out more. I didn’t need it to be an in-depth gaming book, but I think the mystery and the tension build up could have been better, though the underwhelming revelations are reflections of real life too in that sometimes things aren’t as dire as you think, and money moves the world.

I know this is tech stuff doesn’t mean anything if you don’t know gaming or computers, but I appreciated that they address having the right ports and connection compatibilities. Aaron creating his computer from old parts, and Divya getting new stuff from developers don’t always mean they’ll align. Aaron being a casual gamer is also great. His plan to just roam around in the game, happy to be killed and start from scratch over while still exploring the game as much as the hard pressed gamer, even those more intense players than Divya. It showed a great other side of gaming where there is a scale of people who play these games, each with their own reasons.

I am not one to follow streamers, but I have a glancing understanding of at least two streamers and seeing their interactions with their followers on streams and how they promote and interact was a lot how Divya does, so I appreciate that community side being reflected. Smith demonstrated really well that it’s about supporting fans and them enjoying your videos as much as you simply playing a game. I liked Laura’s shut down of why anyone would watch streamers with the “why would anyone watch sport?” It’s often forgotten that watching someone play a game is as enjoyable and entertaining as watching sport. Even for those with no interest in playing, but also those who are looking to get into the field. It’s interactive, fun, and if you perhaps can’t afford a game or haven’t got the right system, you can still engage in the community.

I know the detective is meant to be the one officer who is trying to stand up for the trolling and harassment, but the fact anyone is trying to do anything was interesting. So often in real life no one does, and the dozens of articles being written about the incidents in the book vs actual consequences is very reflective of real life. Everyone will slightly reword the same article, post the same video, discuss the same issue, but nothing will happen. No one gets banned, no one gets arrested. I feel at a certain level you could trace a few of these people, but again, it depends what actual resources are being put towards it. I think this is Smith’s ideal world where there is actually interest in stopping the doxing and bullying that happens to women gamers in real life.

Aaron’s naivety is interesting. I liked that even he who gets his own kind of racism, is still unaware of the misogyny and hate directed towards Divya. It’s a good choice to have him be unaware than try and defend it, or play it down. Smith never makes him a villain either for not being aware, it’s a different world than he’s used to and once he learns he wants to help as best he can.

These parts are good. Aaron as a character is a teeny bit annoying, his whole thing about his dad was weird. But I liked how he can have an argument with his mum, out rightly tell her to stop pushing him into a career he doesn’t want and everything, and yet they don’t let it ruin their relationship. She accepts it but still continues, and he apologises but doesn’t change his mind. It might be a cultural thing or a nice realistic part of the teen experience where things are said but mums are still mums and teenage outbursts aren’t a thing to get worked up over.

I love that Aaron, who has a non-subtle saviour complex, doesn’t need to do anything, even when he tries to “save” Divya she’s already in the process of saving herself. Smith uses the story to call out Aaron’s behaviour, even has other characters call it out, but there’s no malice. In different circumstances it might be sweet, albeit patronising, but it doesn’t come across as creepy, just misguided.

The whole book isn’t entirely about the harassment. I loved reading about the gameplay experience, exploring this mythical game and how the interaction works with other players. It’s not Ready Player One or Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow – there isn’t a full break down of the history of gaming, nor do character spend their time discussing old gaming systems and favourite games. It’s a story accessible to anyone even if they don’t know about video games. But it a great reflection of the role videos game play, how they are both equalisers but also dividers in terms of accessibility, and the different experiences they have.

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Where You’ll Find Us by Jen St Jude

Published: 2 June 2026 (print)/2 June 2026 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Bloomsbury YA/Bloomsbury YA
Pages: 384/6 hrs and 6 mins
Narrator: Allegra Verzella
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult Magical Realism
★   ★   ★   ★   ★ – 5 Stars

Calla Quick has no future. At least, that’s how it feels. Her parents disowned her via text message, and now she can’t afford to go to an all-women’s college with her girlfriend Ramona like they planned. But Calla wonders if maybe that’s for the best—because even though Calla told Ramona her parents disowned her because they found out she’s gay, the truth is, Calla has been questioning whether she’s a girl at all.

Calla wishes she had more time to figure everything out, and one night, her wish is seemingly granted. When Calla and Ramona stumble upon a mysterious farmhouse the woods, they meet five teens who claim they’ve lived there for decades. The land, which they call Amaranth, acts as a safe haven for queer kids throughout history—a place free of hate, free of violence, free of time itself. Here, Calla can be Cal, and they feel instantly accepted. They don’t have to worry about the future because at Amaranth, it will never come—until one night when the clock strikes twelve.

Now under a literal ticking clock, the housemates must find a way to stop time again or face going back to their harsh realities, but as Cal learns everyone’s story, they begin to wonder what queer people lose when their history is lost to time.

I love this book. It is a wonderful example of honesty and truth with a happy ending without ignoring reality. I got a lot of Royals vibes from this but I think that came only from the magic, timeless, mysterious, somehow alive building that catered to everyone’s needs. Not a loop exactly just time standing still.

There is a lot of potential to make the harsh realities of queer people through history better. But that isn’t the point of the house. This is a refuge, a safe haven for people to be themselves, find themselves, and work out who they are. Once they solve that they are transported back into the world they left, whatever that was.

St Jude had every chance to make these characters suffer through their hard lives – they escaped hard lives after all. There was nothing stopping them being thrown back into that prison or that relationship and have it end in tragedy even if they did die standing on their feet knowing who they are. I will not give anything away, but I do want to mention that there isn’t a ‘bury your gays’ moment. They suffer yes, but they survive. And while it is a small spoiler, I think it is important and a good thing to know going in because what they endure is hard and it reflects the lives of queers through history as they conform, are imprisoned, beaten, and are harassed for trying to exist. But they survive. It never felt unrealistic to have these endings. Someone had to survive their experiences against the odds and I think the experiences in the house helped that along.

St Jude has taken great care in how they write characters regarding pronouns and identity plus the switch between internal thoughts and public perception, and how it switches is very well done. There is a note about historical references at the start but even then there is respect to the characters and the wording of sentences carries a lot of respect while implying meaning so readers know what is happening.

Cal and Ramona are good characters and good together. I understood Cal’s internal fears and why she couldn’t say anything about her feelings. It isn’t blown out of proportion and her own uncertainty is evident. I appreciated how St Jude turns expectations on your head while never feeling outlandish either. It just isn’t the common expectation which makes conflicts and interactions refreshing.

I loved all of the characters. They are a range of personality types and being stuck in a house together forever Verzella is a great narrator and really distinguishes these characters;  you get each unique voice coming through and that brings full personalities as well.

I loved the historical ranges of characters and the different eras. It was interesting to see what stays the same and what changes for queer youth and society. There is a natural discussion about the evolution of language and I liked seeing modern terminology and understanding trying to be applied to those from different eras. While you can’t always fit historical experiences into modern contexts, I liked that these characters helped each other understand their feelings that they may not have known were fully there aside from their own sense of self.

Queer representation aside, I really like the magical element and the unexpected chaos of time suddenly moving forward as an interesting conundrum for these eternal timeless people. The house rules and the laws of magic St Jude has developed make sense and the otherness of Amaranth is mysterious enough but solid in that you never need any further explanations.

This is my second St Jude book and while I really enjoyed This is How It Ends, this one is better. I loved the depth this story had which you don’t realise right away with so many characters. But it never felt big and grand but it is. It’s quietly powerful and quietly about strength and belief and being yourself, whoever that is. The safety of the house is a paradise in a way and a prison in another but the way it’s navigated after Cal’s arrival is about celebrating living.

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If Tomorrow Doesn’t Come by Jen St Jude

Published: 9 May 2023 (print)/11 May 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Penguin Books/Penguin
Pages: 416/9 hrs and 49 mins
Narrator: Georgie Sadler
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

We Are Okay meets They Both Die at the End in this YA debut about queer first love and mental health at the end of the world-and the importance of saving yourself, no matter what tomorrow may hold.

Avery Byrne has secrets. She’s queer; she’s in love with her best friend, Cass; and she’s suffering from undiagnosed clinical depression. But on the morning Avery plans to jump into the river near her college campus, the world discovers there are only nine days left to live: an asteroid is headed for Earth, and no one can stop it.

Trying to spare her family and Cass additional pain, Avery does her best to make it through just nine more days. As time runs out and secrets slowly come to light, Avery would do anything to save the ones she loves. But most importantly, she learns to save herself. Speak her truth. Seek the support she needs. Find hope again in the tomorrows she has left.

I looked up how long we’d get before we could know about an asteroid big as or bigger than the dinosaur one and while some answers say years there is also a chance it is a few days so the nine day estimate isn’t far off. As the blurb indicates it is reminiscent of They Both Die at the End but en masse and without the infrastructure or safety nets to help people.

We know it’s happening outside the realm of Avery’s bubble but it is her story we’re hearing so we can only know the reaction around her experience. There could certainly be areas where a lot of different things are happening and I understand that St Jude can’t include everything but while a few bad things happen, it is relatively peaceful, a lot more internal conflict than external. Also the impact is in the United States so who knows what the rest of the world is doing, though I’d’ve loved it if St Jude had thrown in a radio broadcast or something to check in on the rest of the planet.

There is a handy warning at the start of the book about the content which is the best approach, people can’t mark a book down for having something in there they don’t like if they are warned ahead of time and continued anyway.

With suicide intent and the end of the earth looming the story is relatively light. There are strange freedoms and priorities given that the world is ending but I understand it in a way from Avery’s journey of herself and what she needs to do. It doesn’t always make sense, especially around Cass and her family versus her life at university, but I guess if you see it from Avery’s perspective it is about her and knowing who she is and that’s what she has to do.

I think this is a book that needs to be viewed from one angle and not another. The realities of the world ending and the possibly unrealistic way St Jude portrays everyone’s actions shouldn’t take away from the way the story tries to explore depression, identity, and love.

I liked the jump through time as we went from years ago to the final day. It helped break the story up and helped give good character background without needing it through present day dialogue or exposition.

A lot of the secondary characters felt flat and you forget about them unless they are on the page Sadler does a good job narrating and each character is identifiable so that was a bonus.

Overall it was a good book. It isn’t perfect but it covered interesting themes about family trauma, religion, identity, and love. Plus you get the think about what you’d do if the world was ending.

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One of Us is Back (#3) by Karen M. McManus

Long Lost Reviews is a monthly meme created by Ally over at Ally’s Appraisals which is posted on the second Thursday of every month. The aim is to start tackling your review backlog. Whether it’s an in-depth analysis of how it affected your life, one sentence stating that you only remember the ending, or that you have no recollection of reading the book at all. 

Published: 27 July 2023 (print)/27 July 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Penguin/Penguin
Pages: 368/10 hrs and 12 mins
Narrator: Shannon McManus, Holly Linneman, Robbie Daymond, Jeff Ebner
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult Mystery/Thriller
★   ★   ★   ★ – 4 Stars

At first the mysterious billboard seems like a bad joke: Time for a new game, Bayview. But when a member of the crew disappears, it’s clear this ‘game’ just got serious – and no-one understands the rules.

Ever since Simon died in detention, life hasn’t been easy for the Bayview Crew. First the Bayview Four had to prove they weren’t killers. Then a new generation had to outwit a vengeful copycat. Now, it’s beginning again.

The thing is, Simon was right about secrets-they all come out, eventually. And Bayview has a lot it’s still hiding.

Everyone’s a target. And now that someone unexpected has returned to Bayview, things are starting to get deadly.

Simon was right about secrets – they all come out in the end. 

This I’m resigning into a Long Lost Review because my notes are few, my memory of it is non-existent, and even the blurb is giving me nothing. I have a few notes but don’t remember much from this book. Even reading plot summaries nothing is sticking. Given my notes are about it being a bit confusing probably has something to do with it.

As the story starts there is a pause to recap previous books as characters are introduced. It’s seamless enough, but it’s a lot to recap given the complexity of previous books which makes it a little wordy and awkward all the same.

The cast has grown which is acknowledged, there are a lot of people to keep track of, and to mix the old ones in with the new and bring new readers up to speed and refresh memories is a lot. With the return of previous characters you can see growth, how they haven’t changed, how they are beyond high school even though it hasn’t been that long.

I have given it four stars so I must have enjoyed it, but maybe also I enjoyed McManus’ writing style, enjoyed returning to these characters, and maybe the plot was good and interesting at the time but isn’t one that sticks.

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The Way I Am Now (#2) by Amber Smith

Published: 7 November 2023 (print)/7 November 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Margaret K. McElderry Books/Spotify Audio
Pages: 229/10 hrs and 37 mins
Narrator: Jordan Fisher and Rebekkah Ross
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

Eden and Josh never had a fair shot at a healthy relationship. When they dated in high school, they each had their own problems getting in the way of the deep connection they felt toward one another. Unbeknownst to Josh, Eden was carrying the burden of a devastating sexual assault, while Josh was dealing with his own private struggle of having an alcoholic father.

Months after Eden and two other girls publicly accuse their rapist, Eden is starting college while her case goes to trial. Now when she and Josh reconnect, it seems like it might finally be in the right place at the right time for them to make it work. But is their love strong enough to withstand the challenges and chaos of college and the crushing realities of a trial that will determine whether Eden gets the justice she deserves?

It took me a year to read this after having read the first book in the duology. While I had conflicting feelings over the first story, having read the second made me remember the key moments of the first book and fade away what I found to be boring. I think the driving part of this was the Eden/Josh relationship. That was the better part of the first book and while I immensely respect the story Smith told the first time around, I liked this one better.

There really was something about Smith’s writing in the first book that kept me thinking about trying the sequel. I would see it there and keep it on my saved list to get to when I had a chance around other books I wanted to read. I was connected to Eden and Josh and if that was the pull of the sequel then that’s what got me to finally pick it up.

I really like the Eden/Josh relationship. They are good together, work through their issues together, and have a good communication style. It’s interesting how fond I feel for these characters, especially when I gave book one 2.5 stars, but the dynamic and honesty between the pair, the emotional connection, really grabs you. Maybe not intensely or dramatically, but it hooks on and doesn’t let go.

The story itself is good. We’ve been with Eden for three years and now she is at university and trying again with Josh, the right way round this time, dates and all. The characters we’ve met in book one are back. He mother is different, her father is worse, and her brother is more supportive and in her corner which I loved. The friends she has have also had their own experiences which change them and mixing all of these together brings its own challenges.

The story is nowhere near as dark or intense as the first, more reflective, less emotional (but not emotionless), and full of hope. There is intrigue and a compelling story right away so it keeps you engaged. You are enamoured by these people and want to see where their story goes. Having the history of book one behind you Smith doesn’t need to give us a huge reintroduction into any of these people because we know them already, the only difference is seeing how they’ve evolved.

The storyline from book one continues and we see the consequences from Eden’s action of outing her rapist which was great. Her bravery and the challenges she faced are played out and it was good to see the “after” moment of the big reveals and challenges that characters often make.

Aside from the court case in the background, this is a very character driven story as Josh and Eden find their place and work out their lives together. Their affection for one another never feels saccharine or unrealistic, it’s solid, especially given the risk and the dangers they started out with.

I was sceptical going in, but Smith does a great job finishing the story that began so dark and traumatic, moving it into a lighter more hopeful space. There is still the ongoing consequences of the first book which was a realism I appreciated. There are no perfect fixes, Eden isn’t magically healed, Josh isn’t always perfect, and the stresses of life and emotional tolls cause conflict.

I’m curious as to whether there will be a third. I don’t think it needs it, I think Smith finishes the story in a perfect place that is open and up to the reader. Especially given how it ends I think picking a solid conclusion would be risky. But if a third one came along I would no doubt be intrigued enough to see where it went.

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