Only Mostly Devastated by Sophie Gonzales

Published: 3 March 2020 (print)/7 January 2021 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Wednesday Books/Macmillan Young Listeners
Pages: 281/7 hrs and 48 mins
Narrator: Mark Sanderlin
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult Romance
★   ★   ★   ★ – 4 Stars

Will Tavares is the dream summer fling – he’s fun, affectionate, kind – but just when Ollie thinks he’s found his happily ever after, summer vacation ends and Will stops texting Ollie back. Now Ollie is one prince short of his fairy-tale ending, and to complicate the fairy tale further, a family emergency sees Ollie uprooted and enrolled at a new school across the country. Which he minds a little less when he realizes it’s the same school Will goes to…except Ollie finds that the sweet, comfortably queer guy he knew from summer isn’t the same one attending Collinswood High. This Will is a class clown, closeted – and, to be honest, a bit of a jerk.

Ollie has no intention of pining after a guy who clearly isn’t ready for a relationship, especially since this new, bro-y jock version of Will seems to go from hot to cold every other week. But then Will starts “coincidentally” popping up in every area of Ollie’s life, from music class to the lunch table, and Ollie finds his resolve weakening.

The last time he gave Will his heart, Will handed it back to him trampled and battered. Ollie would have to be an idiot to trust him with it again.

Right? Right.

Once again Sophie Gonzales has written a book about a US high school without making me so consciously in-your-face aware we are in a USA high school. I love this. I love I can enjoy overseas books without having to endure the way the school is usually written.

It is promoted as Clueless x Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda, which I can see. But there is a little bit of Grease in there too. The secret romance, the unexpected return of a summer fling. It’s even got great character development.

There is a good development from casual homophobic jokes to friendly support. There’s a healthy balance of standing up for friends, knowing when to keep quiet and when not too. Gonzales has made this a book about the characters and their lives and not about being in school. It’s fabulous.

Gonzales explores the issue of terminal illness and grief in a way that is always there but doesn’t take over the story. It’s the reason for everything and yet the story still moves on without there needing to be detailed explanations and descriptions of hospitals. Having Ollie be the babysitter and still a teenager means he is there to help and mind the kids while the adults deal with the serious side of things. It keeps the intensity and the emotional impact whilst not taking away from the other story.

Even the “epic summer” that is told through various flashbacks is about the connection between Will and Ollie. I think the usual blatant references to the fact someone is in high school, not sure what to do with their life, how summer break is a major event – all of that which annoys me normally in American books is subdued while still being key factors in the plot. Having it not blatantly pointed out and constantly referenced means you can focus on the story. We understand these are important times, it doesn’t need to be drilled into the reader and Gonzales does a spectacular job exploring the same themes without doing that.

The development of Will and Ollie as a pair while Will is trying to be a different person at school and Ollie coming to terms with his new situation and surprise secrets was good. Realistic progression of feelings, realistic behaviour around friends and their own issues. You could feel them planning their lives, still having teen drama, and living their high school experience without it feeling like it was shoved in your face. I think I need Gonzales to write all future USA YA books set in a high school please.

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I Kissed Shara Wheeler by Casey McQuiston

Published: 3 May 2022 (print)/14 October 2024 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
St. Martin’s Press/Macmillan Digital Audio
Pages: 356/9 hrs and 24 mins
Narrator: Natalie Naudus
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★ – 2 Stars

Chloe Green is so close to winning. After her mums moved her from SoCal to Alabama for high school, she’s spent the past four years dodging gossipy classmates and a puritanical administration at Willowgrove Christian Academy. The thing that’s kept her going: winning valedictorian. Her only rival: prom queen Shara Wheeler, the principal’s perfect progeny.

But a month before graduation, Shara kisses Chloe and vanishes.

On a furious hunt for answers, Chloe discovers she’s not the only one Shara kissed. There’s also Smith, Shara’s longtime quarterback sweetheart, and Rory, Shara’s bad boy neighbour with a crush. The three have nothing in common except Shara and the annoyingly cryptic notes she left behind, but together they must untangle Shara’s trail of clues and find her. It’ll be worth it, if Chloe can drag Shara back before graduation to beat her fair-and-square.

Thrown into an unlikely alliance, chasing a ghost through parties, break-ins, puzzles, and secrets revealed on monogrammed stationery, Chloe starts to suspect there might be more to this small town than she thought. And maybe—probably not, but maybe—more to Shara, too.

After seeing this book for months I finally caved and read it. At least now I know what it’s about and can stop thinking about it. The downside is I now know it wasn’t that good. This is a story I think may have worked well in a movie but in a book it sounds stupid played out.

Once you tolerate the Annoyingly American High School shoved in your face, the story is ok. I kept going for the mystery and the scavenger hunt but you suffer some annoying plot and dialogue decisions in the process. I wasn’t even a fan of the narrator, her voices are grating but the narration voice outside dialogue is good.

It is like a worse version of Paper Towns, and at least McQuinston acknowledges the similarities. But the fact that Paper Towns was pointedly not about tracking someone down, Margot was not someone who needed saving, just goes to prove this is a terrible way to bring it to a new audience because that misses the point of Paper Towns entirely.

I enjoyed the familiar scepticism that “cool” people only talk to you when they are lining you up for a trick or to humiliate you. I also enjoyed the real time evolution of the rumour mill and how even those who witness something with their own eyes start to believe what they hear about an event and try and spread it around. There was some self-awareness as other characters shoot that down. It was a new approach and I liked the pushback.

There is no satisfactory conclusion to this and it should have ended a lot sooner. Even with the “revolution” it felt tacked on at the end, even the few comeuppances weren’t that satisfying. If you wanted a grand reveal have it all happen and then throw in an epilogue, but the fact we have to endure the messed up life of a character, not even the main character, who helps her undo all her BS and her manipulation because she’s a lost fawn, was unnecessary. I’d rather sit through a wrap up epilogue that tells us this instead of having Chloe do all the work to save Shara, even if she does at least point out her crappy behaviour and manipulative tendencies in lieu of an actual conversation.

Yes, there is the whole suppressed high school, Alabama town thing going on which is supposed to be a justification, but it doesn’t make for an enjoyable read. Shara is not a character worth investing in, her manipulation despite how misguided it was isn’t worth the effort afterwards. Chloe goes through a whole thing tracking her down and it’s a lot of effort for no satisfactory ending.

The scavenger hunt part was intriguing, but when that fell apart the book wasn’t as enjoyable. The writing wasn’t pulling its weight and I don’t know whether it was the narrator or not, but the dialogue and story weren’t good. The first half was good then promptly drops off a cliff into the sea by the end. Four hours too long which at a nine hour book is just plainly a bad second half.

I am now unsure whether McQuinston is an author for me. It happens unfortunately and it’s happened before. I stop reading One Last Stop, and while I assumed Red, White, and Royal Blue was not great was because it was so about US politics, but it might just be this isn’t my kind of writer. But hopefully this queer, Sapphic romance is right up someone’s alley and maybe even the fact that Chloe does call Shara out on her nonsense is a small saving grace for the story. No one entirely gets away unaccountable despite their sob story.

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When Aiden Became a Brother by Kyle Lukoff

Published: 7th May 2019Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Lee and Low
Illustrator: Kaylani Juanita
Pages: 32
Format: Picture Book
★   ★   ★   ★  – 4 Stars

When Aidan was born, everyone thought he was a girl. His parents gave him a pretty name, his room looked like a girl’s room, and he wore clothes that other girls liked wearing. After he realised he was a trans boy, Aidan and his parents fixed the parts of life that didn’t fit anymore, and he settled happily into his new life. Then Mum and Dad announce that they’re going to have another baby, and Aidan wants to do everything he can to make things right for his new sibling from the beginning–from choosing the perfect name to creating a beautiful room to picking out the cutest onesie. But what does “making things right” actually mean? And what happens if he messes up? With a little help, Aidan comes to understand that mistakes can be fixed with honesty and communication, and that he already knows the most important thing about being a big brother: how to love with his whole self.

The story is of a transgender character, but the main point of the story is Aiden’s journey on becoming a big brother. The first few pages explain about Aiden but then the rest of the story is how they are preparing their home for a new sibling.

With Aiden’s voice it keeps the narrative at a child’s perspective. Aiden’s concerns about how the new baby will feel in their room, in their clothes, while throughout there are references to how he felt before he found the words to express who he was.

The illustrations are detailed and colourful. The various scenes are on display, often bringing the right emotion connected to the story whether it’s fun, adventurous or uncertain. Juanita captures Aiden’s emotions well and it adds another element to the story.

It is a sweet story and one that balances the new sibling apprehension and the trans child experience. Aiden’s journey isn’t the point of the story, but it is a foundation for his worries and his own experience that he doesn’t want the new baby to have. It’s great for kids as it’s from the perspective of a child and shows they have a lot of thoughts and worries that may go unnoticed.

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The Dos and Donuts of Love by Adiba Jaigirdar

Published: 8 June 2023 (print)/8 June 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Feiwel & Friends/Hodder Children’s Books
Pages: 336/8 hrs and 27 mins
Narrator: Priya Ayyar
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary YA Romance
★   ★ – 2.5 Stars

“Welcome to the first ever Junior Irish Baking Show!”

Shireen Malik is still reeling from the breakup with her ex-girlfriend, Chris, when she receives news that she’s been accepted as a contestant on a new televised baking competition show. This is Shireen’s dream come true! Because winning will not only mean prize money, but it will also bring some much-needed attention to You Drive Me Glazy, her parents’ beloved doughnut shop.

Things get complicated, though, because Chris is also a contestant on the show. Then there’s the very outgoing Niamh, a fellow contestant who is becoming fast friends with Shireen. Things are heating up between them, and not just in the kitchen.

As the competition intensifies, Shireen will have to ignore all these factors and more— including potential sabotage—if she wants a sweet victory!

This is a hard one to review because so many issue I had with it are specific plot points but being vague about the problems is doing it a disservice as well. I’ll try my best to be vague but spoiler free. It begins with an established Romeo and Juliet (or Juliet and Juliet) type situation that’s already transpired, but that isn’t the focus as the post break-up of Shireen and Chris is where we come in.

We learn a lot about Shireen early on, her love of baking shows and baking, her friendship with Fatima and her recent break up. Her parents run a doughnut shop which has a rivalry with the one across the street which is where her relationship with Chris comes from. I enjoyed getting to know about Shireen’s life and it was great to have everything be established without chunks of exposition, Jaigirdar reveals things seamlessly as the story goes on.

I was curious about the format of the Junior Irish Baking Show. The filming and show structure decisions go against what I know from the baking and reality TV world but it worked for the plot and when you create your own made up show you can do what you like. One peculiar aspect was the fact the judges would have more sway than producers, and that the producers would hide cheating, despite the truth being they would jump on that drama and get views out of it or at best be accused of favouritism and unfair conditions for everyone else in the competition if they didn’t act.

There are a lot of confusing elements of this story which, as I said, if I start to unpack I’ll be breaking down the plot points, but Shireen’s relationship with her parents swung between being supportive, to indifferent, to contradictory. They were unsure about her being on the show which was understandable, but then they became supportive, but also never minded Shireen never stayed and watched the show with them or seemed invested to talk to her about it. It may be a cultural thing, Shireen mentions how they display affection a few times, this might be the way it goes in her Bangladeshi house.

The less confusing aspects were just plain potholes. As the story went on the basic structure from the start started to fall apart and things just didn’t make realistic sense. It was already hard to believe that the judges are in charge, but to believe there is no security in the studio, and what security there is so is unfathomably unrealistic. It takes you away from the story because it just would not happen. It’s one thing to put your disbelief aside if the characters and the story is compelling enough, but since the characters were slightly flat and underdeveloped, and the storyline was a little outlandish, there is a point where you can’t drive around a plot hole anymore and you have to fall into them.

Shireen’s selfish and judgemental attitude is easy to pin on her being a teenager, as well as being hurt and lashing out when she is upset. By the end there is an attempt at character development but unfortunately it felt rushed and shallow and didn’t feel much more than her apologising for her behaviour without actually changing it. To her credit she is flawed without becoming unlikable, there is a good balance there.

Chris was a confusing character. She is on the baking show, but has been established as not being much of a baker, but she needs to win, but also doesn’t think she’s good enough to and doesn’t really like to bake. Shireen isn’t her only competition so it was a weird reason to have this cause conflict between them. If we’re supposed to be invested in Chris and Shireen patching up their friendship/relationship Jaigirdar doesn’t give you much to work with. We got so little from Chris on the page it was hard to understand her character at all aside from the few points Shireen mentions on the page.

The love triangle or potential love interest angle was also barely addressed. It hovered in the corner but I never felt it became really viable. The past drama over Chris was more of a focus than diving into anything with Niamh who was also underdeveloped.

There were positives to admire. The representation of Asian cultures was strong and the celebration of their cuisine was positive. The exploration of online bullying, racism, and fatphobia are addressed naturally and with respect. That was one part of the story that felt real. Of course the adults would reach out to make sure the kids were ok it was strange again that it was the judges taking the lead and not an on set counsellor or producer but I understand the connection Jaigirdar was trying to make with Shireen.

Ayyar does a good job at narrating. The accent switches were good and helped establish characters though it was an interesting choice to have an Irish/Bangladeshi be narrated as American when everyone else got their own character’s accent.

There are puns a plenty if that’s your thing and you have to admire Jaigirdar for creating a set of judges who are the unsubtle off brand versions of real celebrity judges. Padma Bollywood is the Paul Hollywood you can put in a book without it being Paul Hollywood. Mary Berry and Gordon Ramsey also get their own alternate selves. Overall, it’s light hearted full of baking and culture so if you are after an easy read this would be perfect, but even light reads shouldn’t throw some parts of reality out the window.

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10 Things That Never Happened by Alexis Hall

Published: 17 October 2023 (print)/17 October 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Sourcebooks Casablanca/Dreamscape Media
Pages: 391/10 hrs and 10 mins
Narrator: Will Watt
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Romance
★   ★   ★   ★ – 4 Stars

Sam Becker loves—or, okay, likes—his job. Sure, managing a bed-and-bath retailer isn’t exactly glamorous, but it’s good work, and he gets on well with the band of misfits who keep the store running. He could see himself being content here for the long haul. Too bad, then, that the owner is an infuriating git.

Jonathan Forest should never have hired Sam. It was a sentimental decision, and Jonathan didn’t get where he is by following his heart. Determined to set things right, Jonathan orders Sam down to London for a difficult talk…only for a panicking Sam to trip, bump his head, and maybe accidentally imply he doesn’t remember anything?

Faking amnesia seemed like a good idea when Sam was afraid he was getting sacked, but now he has to deal with the reality of Jonathan’s guilt—as well as the unsettling fact that his surly boss might have a softer side to him. There’s an unexpected freedom in getting a second shot at a first impression…but as Sam and Jonathan grow closer, can Sam really bring himself to tell the truth, or will their future be built entirely on one impulsive lie? 

I spent a lot my time reading this book swinging between liking it and disliking it, or not even disliking it, but feeling uncomfortable with certain parts. I haven’t read any fake amnesia stories before so I have nothing to hold it up against but I’m not the biggest fan, but Hall manages to navigate it satisfactorily. There may be tiny spoilers but I loved some parts so much I have to address them.

I enjoyed the premise of how the relationship between Sam and Jonathan worked and the establishing connection they had through the store. The dynamic between his staff and upper management felt real and Hall makes it easy to understand the kind of rock and hard place Sam puts himself in.

The accident which kick starts this fake amnesia is great and we get a lot of Sam’s internal thoughts that guide so much of this book. His actions come from the worries and concerns he has, as well as balancing being professional and his inherent cheeky, pain in the arse, blunt and honest nature. This butts up against the uptight personality of Jonathan who is trying to do the right thing but also keep a store afloat and lawyers out of the situation.

The Jonathan/Sam dynamic is fun and while Sam pushes buttons it is often not always a bad thing as Jonathan is wound very tightly. Jonathan taking Sam in is believable from an own your own business/personal investment/guilt combo which we see reflected in Jonathan’s side of the story.

I love the humour throughout, the ongoing jokes about always referencing products by their full name and Sam’s easy attitude making quips – appropriate or not – are delightful. There are secrets too without it being dangled over our head that something is being withheld like a horrible unnecessary tease. What we aren’t told works for the narrative really well and is also a gut punch when you uncover it.

My main issue was feeling uneasy with the premise. Sam spends a lot of time worrying about the lying and how he is going to get out of this fake amnesia but there are ample opportunities for him to fake his way back into recover which he never takes.

I know the point is to have him put his foot in it and have it be a moment of crisis and tension between them, but I would have loved another route, maybe honesty, and have him cleverly bring back the reveal of his recovered memories. But I’m not the one who wrote the book.

And I suppose these big moments are the reason why people like the trope and not for cleverly avoiding tension – I think this is my issue, I had it in Take a Bow, Noah Mitchell and I have it in this. It’s the deception and the lying I am not a fan of and when I can see clear ways to stop that organically, albeit still deceptively, and not have it come into a moment of betrayal and trust from characters I wish the author took it. But again, not the point of the trope. At least there was a legit reason for the deception, not a made up thing about miscommunication or people assuming they’ve seen something without talking to anyone about it.

A part of me hates how invested and how much I adored the final part of the story because I spent a good chunk at the start unsure if I liked it or not. It’s amazing how much that good saving grace conversation rescued this book.

Hall was incredibly fortunate to recover by having Sam say all the things. Yes he didn’t tell Jonathan but when confronted he actually explains himself: he was scared, he was worried about his job, and he says the right things about seeing Jonathan as a boss and a person, and now knowing who he is.

I loved Sam, he is trying his best and trying to please everyone which is where all his troubles start. It was also brilliant how Sam’s life looks ok from the outside but we soon uncover he’s actually at his low point long before we see him realise he’s at his low point. It’s incredibly clever and it’s a great insight into how people perceive themselves and how others see you.

Watt does a great job with the audiobook. Each character has their own voice and you really got a grasp of who these characters were, their emotional state and their uncertainties. Which is no small feat when some scenes had Jonathan’s entire family talking over one another. Watt should be commended for keeping that distinguishable in an audio only setting.

Finishing this book had me repeating to myself I must not reread Boyfriend Material because I think I do love how Hall writes emotionally damaged, cocky British boys and I love seeing them crumble for emotionally uptight British boys. It’s not as fantastic as Boyfriend Material, but it is still a good story with real characters with real heart and foolishness which I will begrudgingly forgive (just).

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