I Kissed Shara Wheeler by Casey McQuiston

Published: 3 May 2022 (print)/14 October 2024 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
St. Martin’s Press/Macmillan Digital Audio
Pages: 356/9 hrs and 24 mins
Narrator: Natalie Naudus
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★ – 2 Stars

Chloe Green is so close to winning. After her mums moved her from SoCal to Alabama for high school, she’s spent the past four years dodging gossipy classmates and a puritanical administration at Willowgrove Christian Academy. The thing that’s kept her going: winning valedictorian. Her only rival: prom queen Shara Wheeler, the principal’s perfect progeny.

But a month before graduation, Shara kisses Chloe and vanishes.

On a furious hunt for answers, Chloe discovers she’s not the only one Shara kissed. There’s also Smith, Shara’s longtime quarterback sweetheart, and Rory, Shara’s bad boy neighbour with a crush. The three have nothing in common except Shara and the annoyingly cryptic notes she left behind, but together they must untangle Shara’s trail of clues and find her. It’ll be worth it, if Chloe can drag Shara back before graduation to beat her fair-and-square.

Thrown into an unlikely alliance, chasing a ghost through parties, break-ins, puzzles, and secrets revealed on monogrammed stationery, Chloe starts to suspect there might be more to this small town than she thought. And maybe—probably not, but maybe—more to Shara, too.

After seeing this book for months I finally caved and read it. At least now I know what it’s about and can stop thinking about it. The downside is I now know it wasn’t that good. This is a story I think may have worked well in a movie but in a book it sounds stupid played out.

Once you tolerate the Annoyingly American High School shoved in your face, the story is ok. I kept going for the mystery and the scavenger hunt but you suffer some annoying plot and dialogue decisions in the process. I wasn’t even a fan of the narrator, her voices are grating but the narration voice outside dialogue is good.

It is like a worse version of Paper Towns, and at least McQuinston acknowledges the similarities. But the fact that Paper Towns was pointedly not about tracking someone down, Margot was not someone who needed saving, just goes to prove this is a terrible way to bring it to a new audience because that misses the point of Paper Towns entirely.

I enjoyed the familiar scepticism that “cool” people only talk to you when they are lining you up for a trick or to humiliate you. I also enjoyed the real time evolution of the rumour mill and how even those who witness something with their own eyes start to believe what they hear about an event and try and spread it around. There was some self-awareness as other characters shoot that down. It was a new approach and I liked the pushback.

There is no satisfactory conclusion to this and it should have ended a lot sooner. Even with the “revolution” it felt tacked on at the end, even the few comeuppances weren’t that satisfying. If you wanted a grand reveal have it all happen and then throw in an epilogue, but the fact we have to endure the messed up life of a character, not even the main character, who helps her undo all her BS and her manipulation because she’s a lost fawn, was unnecessary. I’d rather sit through a wrap up epilogue that tells us this instead of having Chloe do all the work to save Shara, even if she does at least point out her crappy behaviour and manipulative tendencies in lieu of an actual conversation.

Yes, there is the whole suppressed high school, Alabama town thing going on which is supposed to be a justification, but it doesn’t make for an enjoyable read. Shara is not a character worth investing in, her manipulation despite how misguided it was isn’t worth the effort afterwards. Chloe goes through a whole thing tracking her down and it’s a lot of effort for no satisfactory ending.

The scavenger hunt part was intriguing, but when that fell apart the book wasn’t as enjoyable. The writing wasn’t pulling its weight and I don’t know whether it was the narrator or not, but the dialogue and story weren’t good. The first half was good then promptly drops off a cliff into the sea by the end. Four hours too long which at a nine hour book is just plainly a bad second half.

I am now unsure whether McQuinston is an author for me. It happens unfortunately and it’s happened before. I stop reading One Last Stop, and while I assumed Red, White, and Royal Blue was not great was because it was so about US politics, but it might just be this isn’t my kind of writer. But hopefully this queer, Sapphic romance is right up someone’s alley and maybe even the fact that Chloe does call Shara out on her nonsense is a small saving grace for the story. No one entirely gets away unaccountable despite their sob story.

You can purchase I Kissed Shara Wheeler via the following

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What Girls Are Made Of by Elana K. Arnold

Published: 1 April 2017 (print)/16 November 2017 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Carolrhoda Lab/HighBridge Audio
Pages: 200/5 hrs and 19 mins
Narrator: Amy Melissa Bently
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3.5 Stars

When Nina Faye was fourteen, her mother told her there was no such thing as unconditional love. Nina believed her. Now she’ll do anything for the boy she loves, to prove she’s worthy of him. But when he breaks up with her, Nina is lost. What is she if not a girlfriend? What is she made of? Broken-hearted, Nina tries to figure out what the conditions of love are.

A lot has been said about the contents of this book but while it is confronting at times, it’s real. It’s about real experiences and while it’s not a manual or a how to guide for how every girl will live or act, it’s honesty about the mess of growing up and the battle against society, family, and yourself is important.

Nina’s journey to finding herself and undoing the damage of the lessons she was taught by her mother, about what she’s told to do and say by her boyfriend is empowering. There’s always time to learn and to change. Nina proves you are the captain of your own ship and you can steer your life into whichever direction you choose.

Love is at the centre of the book and the complicated relationship Nina has with her mother is woven through the story and a catalyst for many of her actions. For a short read there is a lot of story to digest. Arnold doesn’t glorify or exaggerate but there is a collection of emotional and traumatic experiences that the characters experience so it’s clear it isn’t for everyone.

It is a hard book to explain in words but the teen experience is laid out in full detail. The narrative explores sex, abortion, animal death, the raw emotion of growing up, the hypocrisies of society, and the expectations of girls. And as hard as it was to read at times, the honesty and seeing familiar emotions, reactions, and experiences on the page was reaffirming. I truly believe every girl has had a burning fire of anger inside her from a young age and it’s no wonder why when you see what we’re up against.

I will admit I rarely read authors notes, but given my experience of this book it was only right to read what the author had to say about it. It’s a great addition because in simple terms Arnold lays out that are young girls we are often acutely aware of how unpleasant it is being a girl. Our bodies do weird and gross stuff as it develops and long afterwards. We are constantly told how to be and how to act, how we can’t be unpleasant or imperfect, our body must look a certain way, we must act a certain way, and any deviation is mocked, repulsed, and shamed. All of which can contract what we want to do and how we want behave and worst of all it can warp our own sense of joy when we do try and embrace girlhood.

It was refreshing to see a story that breaks down that sometimes it’s hard and absolutely sucks to be a girl, as it does to be human. As a human, girls should be allowed to exist in whatever way they want and seeing a great flawed, messy character like Nina break through the bonds of what women should be and find herself was refreshing.

You can purchase What Girls Are Made of via the following

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Perfect on Paper by Sophie Gonzales

Published: 9 March 2021 (print)/11 March 2021 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Wednesday Books/Hodder Children’s Books
Pages: 352/8 hrs and 58 mins
Narrator: Barrie Kreinik
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★   ★   ★ – 4 Stars

Her advice, spot on. Her love life, way off.

Darcy Phillips:
• Can give you the solution to any of your relationship woes—for a fee.
• Uses her power for good. Most of the time.
• Really cannot stand Alexander Brougham.
• Has maybe not the best judgement when it comes to her best friend, Brooke…who is in love with someone else.
• Does not appreciate being blackmailed.

However, when Brougham catches her in the act of collecting letters from locker 89—out of which she’s been running her questionably legal, anonymous relationship advice service—that’s exactly what happens. In exchange for keeping her secret, Darcy begrudgingly agrees to become his personal dating coach—at a generous hourly rate, at least. The goal? To help him win his ex-girlfriend back.

Darcy has a good reason to keep her identity secret. If word gets out that she’s behind the locker, some things she’s not proud of will come to light, and there’s a good chance Brooke will never speak to her again.

Okay, so all she has to do is help an entitled, bratty, (annoyingly hot) guy win over a girl who’s already fallen for him once? What could go wrong?

One thing I’ve discovered is I enjoy books set in US high schools if they are written by an Australian. I picked this up for my #AussieYAChallenge but was incredibly confused with the American narrator. But it ended up ok because it’s a good story and does have decent Australian representation in it.

The US school system is a baffling thing anyway but I liked that it didn’t feel so engrained in the school. We get story outside of school a lot which helped balance it. I also enjoyed how even though it followed the US style YA story of having these school wide social media/student organised systems in the form of Darcy’s advice business, it wasn’t weird and unsettling. It was something I had seen with One of Us is Lying, and a few others – a public forum, app, or secrets blog that ruled the school, caused drama, or blackmailed people. This is more like Dear Wendy which technically was university and more public, but the premise was the same: a write in advice service.

The secret locker business was interesting, and the way Darcy explains it was set up is reasonable, as is the eventually outcome of the whole endeavour. Darcy has an interest in helping people and makes sure she does her research and isn’t doing it for gossip or nefarious purposes. But like all things, it’s the invested interest and biases than can get you into trouble.

The hired for advice thing was well played out, and I liked how the relationship between Brougham and Darcy evolved. The blurb is slightly misleading, but from Darcy’s perspective it is not entirely untrue. While there is drama I enjoyed the personal nature of it and it never felt unrealistic. The often overdone, overreaction unreality was missing and it was refreshing to see.

I enjoyed the queer aspect where the bisexual representation was handled well, as well as the exploration of other issues in the school club discussions. It isn’t a side plot per se, Gonzales interweaves everything to be connected somehow, but it’s another aspect of Darcy’s character and it’s a great way to show her growth as well as tie it into the conflicts of the story.

Even with the US setting Gonzales brought the Aussie writing style that made it feel natural. With this also came the benefit of having an Australian character that didn’t sound like a painful stereotype or an American in disguise. Brougham got to actually be a full character and not a background voice of cliché phrases. Gonzales does sneak in a few slang words and some unspoken things which any good Aussie could pick up on, and while it felt a little like a nod to the Aussie reader or a brief education, it still felt ok and within the narrative. I never felt like we stopped the story to have a wedged in “Australian moment”, instead it was a fun meeting of cultures.

Kreinik is a good narrator and the voice of Darcy suited her well. There was no bad Aussie accent either which was so good and a nice change. Overall I was pleasantly surprised considering I was a little reluctant going in.

You can purchase Perfect on Paper via the following

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Fishpond | Amazon | Amazon Aust | Audible

Take A Bow, Noah Mitchell by Tobias Madden

Published: 30 August 2022 (print)/25 October 2022 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Penguin/Penguin Random House Australia Audio
Pages: 384/9 hrs and 43 mins
Narrator: Matthew Backer
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3.5 Stars

Seventeen-year-old gaymer Noah Mitchell only has one friend left: the wonderful, funny, strictly online-only MagePants69. After years playing RPGs together, they know everything about each other, except anything that would give away their real life identities. And Noah is certain that if they could just meet in person, they would be soulmates. Noah would do anything to make this happen—including finally leaving his gaming chair to join a community theater show that he’s only mostly sure MagePants69 is performing in. Noah has never done anything like theater—he can’t sing, he can’t dance, and he’s never willingly watched a musical—but he’ll have to go all in to have a chance at love.

With Noah’s mum performing in the lead role, and former friends waiting in the wings to sabotage his reputation, his plan to make MagePants69 fall in love with him might be a little more difficult than originally anticipated.

And the longer Noah waits to come clean, the more tangled his web of lies becomes. By opening night, he will have to decide if telling the truth is worth closing the curtain on his one shot at true love.

I know it is the point but I get so uncomfortable with lying in these types of novels when the character could organically weave it into a planned pretend surprise revelation. Which I know defeats the purpose of black moments and tension in the story and is more high concept than a love struck horny 17 year old can fathom, but it is always an interesting choice. Surely there can still be drama and twists by the manipulation of the facts than lying about them? Maybe for the next book.

Interestingly I didn’t actually want Noah and Eli to be together, not even because of the lies after a while, because I felt Eli wasn’t right for Noah. He is rash and emotional and quick to jump to conclusions. Even for Noah’s faults it felt like Eli would be a hard person to fully trust and be with if every move is under suspicion and always jumps to the worst conclusion.

Having said all that, what I did like is that the ending isn’t perfect. Something which works well for my opinions of the characters. While the story wraps up nicely, it is still tender and rocky for everyone involved. It felt better than full on acceptance, you can see growth in the characters, understand their reasoning and accept their decisions. I get a teenage boy not understanding the adult side of life, having a narrow viewpoint about their world view, and I also see how a parent can be lost in who they’ve become. The combination and culmination of both these plots was perfect and I loved Madden’s perspective and how each character felt real. The mother/son dynamic was honest and realistic, full of history and disappointment coming across with minimal effort. Everything Noah and his mother are, his sister and father as well of course, but everything these characters are is on the page perfectly.

The unspoken mystery was well worth the wait, I completely get Noah’s apprehension and choices around that. It is also so coded in pressure around friends and dramas, the emotional impact of events when you’re young far reaching years later and how it shapes who you are as a person. I get some concerns people have about cringe and no communication but from a teen mindset, of seeing consequences and social fallout, I totally get Noah’s caution. I only felt weird with the deception, which to be fair, so did Noah.

The LGBTQIA+ representation was great and I loved the variety of characters and cultural backgrounds. The gaming portion was well done too. It was balanced great between Noah being a gamer without falling into the trap of often inaccurate and overdone stereotypes. Madden treated it like a real hobby, one that was full of skill, friendship, and community.

I read this as an audiobook and Backer was a great narrator. The characters were distinctive with his voice and I loved how each character came across fully with his narrative style. As a whole the story felt wonderfully Australian without ever feeling cliché or trite. It captures the community of Ballarat, the issues with family, and the desires of getting out on your own while also embracing what you have.

You can purchase Take A Bow, Noah Mitchell via the following

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Summer Bird Blue by Akemi Dawn Bowman

Published: 11 September 2018 (print)/11 September 2018 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Simon Pulse/Tantor Media Inc.
Pages: 375/9 hrs and 4 mins
Narrator: Em Eldridge
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult Contemporary
★   ★   ★ – 3.5 Stars

Rumi Seto spends a lot of time worrying she doesn’t have the answers to everything. What to eat, where to go, whom to love. But there is one thing she is absolutely sure of-she wants to spend the rest of her life writing music with her younger sister, Lea. Then Lea dies in a car accident, and her mother sends her away to live with her aunt in Hawaii while she deals with her own grief. Now thousands of miles from home, Rumi struggles to navigate the loss of her sister, being abandoned by her mother, and the absence of music in her life. With the help of the “boys next door”-a teenage surfer named Kai, who smiles too much and doesn’t take anything seriously, and an eighty-year-old named George Watanabe, who succumbed to his own grief years ago-Rumi attempts to find her way back to her music, to write the song she and Lea never had the chance to finish. Aching, powerful, and unflinchingly honest, Summer Bird Blue explores big truths about insurmountable grief, unconditional love, and how to forgive even when it feels impossible.

I’ve wanted to read this book for ages when I was looking to expand my diversity reads, and I’m glad to read it. It’s a good story about grief and sisters as well as a decent mini side plot about identity and working out where you fit in the world.

There is a good exploration of grief – guilt when you catch yourself being happy, the obsession with doing the one thing you think would make it better ie. writing the song, and how less talking is sometimes what you need like her relationship with the neighbour. Kai’s no nonsense friendship is good too. Not tiptoeing around, but she is able to admit that she will be set off if people try to talk about her sister with her, so she isn’t oblivious but can’t help it. And with the rush of being dumped by her mother and trying to adjust away from her friends who could have helped (apparently there’s no phone or internet in this area of Hawai’i?) then of course she is going to be additionally angry.

What I enjoyed was Rumi knows she is being mean and unreasonable sometimes, but she also thinks she has cause, which she translates to the reader without over explaining. She’s sad she hurts her aunt and knows she always does it, but she also things she should be allowed to sit in her grief. Alone.

I liked Rumi being imperfect because she doesn’t change by being sad, she just can’t regulate as well. She has been abandoned, she doesn’t want to distract herself with friends or shopping, she wants to be left in the hole where her sister left behind.

There was a line I loved that was basically she is now alone, without her sister and without her mum, so she needs to be able to work out how to be alone, work out who she is now she’s alone. Her life was so connected to her sister she needs to find things to do without her. I liked this as a justification for her behaviour and her line of thinking. It isn’t her grief pushing her and her anger being unreasonable. She may not translate that to her aunt or anyone around her that well – she is still an emotional wreck and a teenager – but she knows what she is trying to do. And that is be ok being alone. And she can’t work out how to be alone, and work through her grief alone if people keep trying to make her do frivolous things.

So much of this review could be a discussion about how well this story explores grief but it’s already long enough. Bowman has truly done a great job, and the way each character deals with it makes it a wonderfully messy and real response that doesn’t try and hide the reality and pain. This is very much an example of “Put on your own mask before helping others” approach that Rumi isn’t getting.

In terms of the diversity representation, Rumi’s confusion over feeling left behind shown through her memories was integrated well, and connected to Leah being supportive. It was a great approach instead of sole focus being Rumi looking directly at her own feelings/identity. As a reader we see the hints and clues through memories about who she is before she realises.

What I enjoy about books with aromantic characters is it’s the only books you’ll get where there is no romance. There needs to be more YA where people just make friends, even if they are heteronormative, even if they do want love and romance. What I love about this book is a character makes a new friend and the world doesn’t force them together. I love these because finding friends is just as important as romance as a teen. And being friends first is great, but finding a friend and being happy with that should be a goal, not just for the aromatic books – which are rare anyway. It’s another way to have representation without making them specific aromantic books and highlights the importance of good, solid friendships.

Looking at the reviews (which honestly sometimes you really shouldn’t do, even as a reader. Don’t read the comments and all that), I understand how some people think it might be heavy handed, but it’s not. As someone who has read a lot of lesbian and gay books, people need to remember they are so much more well-known now, more accepted, more common. People don’t need a book anymore about ‘do I like girls and is that weird?’. But I think we still need books about ‘why don’t I like any one and is that weird?’. We are still in the early stages in terms of representation, but it isn’t as bad as they make out, it’s well done to be honest. Teenagers have deeper conversations than you’d think. Talking to strangers can be a lot easier and some people are more open than others too. I don’t know how people can revere Loveless when this one also has someone working through their identity, just because it’s more active than passive doesn’t make it worse.

Eldridge does a great job with the audio, though audio certainly highlighted how repeatedly the words “Aunty Ani” is said which does get annoying. But you’re rarely taken from the story and it was easy to stay in this world of grief and family and discovery.

You can purchase Summer Bird Blue via the following

QBDDymocks | Booktopia

WorderyBlackwell’s | Angus & Robertson

Fishpond | Amazon | Amazon Aust

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