Where You’ll Find Us by Jen St Jude

Published: 2 June 2026 (print)/2 June 2026 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Bloomsbury YA/Bloomsbury YA
Pages: 384/6 hrs and 6 mins
Narrator: Allegra Verzella
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult Magical Realism
★   ★   ★   ★   ★ – 5 Stars

Calla Quick has no future. At least, that’s how it feels. Her parents disowned her via text message, and now she can’t afford to go to an all-women’s college with her girlfriend Ramona like they planned. But Calla wonders if maybe that’s for the best—because even though Calla told Ramona her parents disowned her because they found out she’s gay, the truth is, Calla has been questioning whether she’s a girl at all.

Calla wishes she had more time to figure everything out, and one night, her wish is seemingly granted. When Calla and Ramona stumble upon a mysterious farmhouse the woods, they meet five teens who claim they’ve lived there for decades. The land, which they call Amaranth, acts as a safe haven for queer kids throughout history—a place free of hate, free of violence, free of time itself. Here, Calla can be Cal, and they feel instantly accepted. They don’t have to worry about the future because at Amaranth, it will never come—until one night when the clock strikes twelve.

Now under a literal ticking clock, the housemates must find a way to stop time again or face going back to their harsh realities, but as Cal learns everyone’s story, they begin to wonder what queer people lose when their history is lost to time.

I love this book. It is a wonderful example of honesty and truth with a happy ending without ignoring reality. I got a lot of Royals vibes from this but I think that came only from the magic, timeless, mysterious, somehow alive building that catered to everyone’s needs. Not a loop exactly just time standing still.

There is a lot of potential to make the harsh realities of queer people through history better. But that isn’t the point of the house. This is a refuge, a safe haven for people to be themselves, find themselves, and work out who they are. Once they solve that they are transported back into the world they left, whatever that was.

St Jude had every chance to make these characters suffer through their hard lives – they escaped hard lives after all. There was nothing stopping them being thrown back into that prison or that relationship and have it end in tragedy even if they did die standing on their feet knowing who they are. I will not give anything away, but I do want to mention that there isn’t a ‘bury your gays’ moment. They suffer yes, but they survive. And while it is a small spoiler, I think it is important and a good thing to know going in because what they endure is hard and it reflects the lives of queers through history as they conform, are imprisoned, beaten, and are harassed for trying to exist. But they survive. It never felt unrealistic to have these endings. Someone had to survive their experiences against the odds and I think the experiences in the house helped that along.

St Jude has taken great care in how they write characters regarding pronouns and identity plus the switch between internal thoughts and public perception, and how it switches is very well done. There is a note about historical references at the start but even then there is respect to the characters and the wording of sentences carries a lot of respect while implying meaning so readers know what is happening.

Cal and Ramona are good characters and good together. I understood Cal’s internal fears and why she couldn’t say anything about her feelings. It isn’t blown out of proportion and her own uncertainty is evident. I appreciated how St Jude turns expectations on your head while never feeling outlandish either. It just isn’t the common expectation which makes conflicts and interactions refreshing.

I loved all of the characters. They are a range of personality types and being stuck in a house together forever Verzella is a great narrator and really distinguishes these characters;  you get each unique voice coming through and that brings full personalities as well.

I loved the historical ranges of characters and the different eras. It was interesting to see what stays the same and what changes for queer youth and society. There is a natural discussion about the evolution of language and I liked seeing modern terminology and understanding trying to be applied to those from different eras. While you can’t always fit historical experiences into modern contexts, I liked that these characters helped each other understand their feelings that they may not have known were fully there aside from their own sense of self.

Queer representation aside, I really like the magical element and the unexpected chaos of time suddenly moving forward as an interesting conundrum for these eternal timeless people. The house rules and the laws of magic St Jude has developed make sense and the otherness of Amaranth is mysterious enough but solid in that you never need any further explanations.

This is my second St Jude book and while I really enjoyed This is How It Ends, this one is better. I loved the depth this story had which you don’t realise right away with so many characters. But it never felt big and grand but it is. It’s quietly powerful and quietly about strength and belief and being yourself, whoever that is. The safety of the house is a paradise in a way and a prison in another but the way it’s navigated after Cal’s arrival is about celebrating living.

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If Tomorrow Doesn’t Come by Jen St Jude

Published: 9 May 2023 (print)/11 May 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Penguin Books/Penguin
Pages: 416/9 hrs and 49 mins
Narrator: Georgie Sadler
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

We Are Okay meets They Both Die at the End in this YA debut about queer first love and mental health at the end of the world-and the importance of saving yourself, no matter what tomorrow may hold.

Avery Byrne has secrets. She’s queer; she’s in love with her best friend, Cass; and she’s suffering from undiagnosed clinical depression. But on the morning Avery plans to jump into the river near her college campus, the world discovers there are only nine days left to live: an asteroid is headed for Earth, and no one can stop it.

Trying to spare her family and Cass additional pain, Avery does her best to make it through just nine more days. As time runs out and secrets slowly come to light, Avery would do anything to save the ones she loves. But most importantly, she learns to save herself. Speak her truth. Seek the support she needs. Find hope again in the tomorrows she has left.

I looked up how long we’d get before we could know about an asteroid big as or bigger than the dinosaur one and while some answers say years there is also a chance it is a few days so the nine day estimate isn’t far off. As the blurb indicates it is reminiscent of They Both Die at the End but en masse and without the infrastructure or safety nets to help people.

We know it’s happening outside the realm of Avery’s bubble but it is her story we’re hearing so we can only know the reaction around her experience. There could certainly be areas where a lot of different things are happening and I understand that St Jude can’t include everything but while a few bad things happen, it is relatively peaceful, a lot more internal conflict than external. Also the impact is in the United States so who knows what the rest of the world is doing, though I’d’ve loved it if St Jude had thrown in a radio broadcast or something to check in on the rest of the planet.

There is a handy warning at the start of the book about the content which is the best approach, people can’t mark a book down for having something in there they don’t like if they are warned ahead of time and continued anyway.

With suicide intent and the end of the earth looming the story is relatively light. There are strange freedoms and priorities given that the world is ending but I understand it in a way from Avery’s journey of herself and what she needs to do. It doesn’t always make sense, especially around Cass and her family versus her life at university, but I guess if you see it from Avery’s perspective it is about her and knowing who she is and that’s what she has to do.

I think this is a book that needs to be viewed from one angle and not another. The realities of the world ending and the possibly unrealistic way St Jude portrays everyone’s actions shouldn’t take away from the way the story tries to explore depression, identity, and love.

I liked the jump through time as we went from years ago to the final day. It helped break the story up and helped give good character background without needing it through present day dialogue or exposition.

A lot of the secondary characters felt flat and you forget about them unless they are on the page Sadler does a good job narrating and each character is identifiable so that was a bonus.

Overall it was a good book. It isn’t perfect but it covered interesting themes about family trauma, religion, identity, and love. Plus you get the think about what you’d do if the world was ending.

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Only Mostly Devastated by Sophie Gonzales

Published: 3 March 2020 (print)/7 January 2021 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Wednesday Books/Macmillan Young Listeners
Pages: 281/7 hrs and 48 mins
Narrator: Mark Sanderlin
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult Romance
★   ★   ★   ★ – 4 Stars

Will Tavares is the dream summer fling – he’s fun, affectionate, kind – but just when Ollie thinks he’s found his happily ever after, summer vacation ends and Will stops texting Ollie back. Now Ollie is one prince short of his fairy-tale ending, and to complicate the fairy tale further, a family emergency sees Ollie uprooted and enrolled at a new school across the country. Which he minds a little less when he realizes it’s the same school Will goes to…except Ollie finds that the sweet, comfortably queer guy he knew from summer isn’t the same one attending Collinswood High. This Will is a class clown, closeted – and, to be honest, a bit of a jerk.

Ollie has no intention of pining after a guy who clearly isn’t ready for a relationship, especially since this new, bro-y jock version of Will seems to go from hot to cold every other week. But then Will starts “coincidentally” popping up in every area of Ollie’s life, from music class to the lunch table, and Ollie finds his resolve weakening.

The last time he gave Will his heart, Will handed it back to him trampled and battered. Ollie would have to be an idiot to trust him with it again.

Right? Right.

Once again Sophie Gonzales has written a book about a US high school without making me so consciously in-your-face aware we are in a USA high school. I love this. I love I can enjoy overseas books without having to endure the way the school is usually written.

It is promoted as Clueless x Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda, which I can see. But there is a little bit of Grease in there too. The secret romance, the unexpected return of a summer fling. It’s even got great character development.

There is a good development from casual homophobic jokes to friendly support. There’s a healthy balance of standing up for friends, knowing when to keep quiet and when not too. Gonzales has made this a book about the characters and their lives and not about being in school. It’s fabulous.

Gonzales explores the issue of terminal illness and grief in a way that is always there but doesn’t take over the story. It’s the reason for everything and yet the story still moves on without there needing to be detailed explanations and descriptions of hospitals. Having Ollie be the babysitter and still a teenager means he is there to help and mind the kids while the adults deal with the serious side of things. It keeps the intensity and the emotional impact whilst not taking away from the other story.

Even the “epic summer” that is told through various flashbacks is about the connection between Will and Ollie. I think the usual blatant references to the fact someone is in high school, not sure what to do with their life, how summer break is a major event – all of that which annoys me normally in American books is subdued while still being key factors in the plot. Having it not blatantly pointed out and constantly referenced means you can focus on the story. We understand these are important times, it doesn’t need to be drilled into the reader and Gonzales does a spectacular job exploring the same themes without doing that.

The development of Will and Ollie as a pair while Will is trying to be a different person at school and Ollie coming to terms with his new situation and surprise secrets was good. Realistic progression of feelings, realistic behaviour around friends and their own issues. You could feel them planning their lives, still having teen drama, and living their high school experience without it feeling like it was shoved in your face. I think I need Gonzales to write all future USA YA books set in a high school please.

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Spin With Me by Ami Polonsky

Published: 16 February 2021 (print)/16 Feb 2021 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Farrar, Straus and Giroux (Byr)/Tantor Audio
Pages: 224/5 hrs and 6 mins
Narrator: Amanda Dolan
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

In this elegant dual narrative, Essie is a thirteen-year-old girl feeling glum about starting a new school after her professor dad takes a temporary teaching position in a different town. She has 110 days here and can’t wait for them to end. Then she meets Ollie: delicate, blue eyes, short hair, easy smile. At first, Essie thinks she has a typical crush on a beautiful boy. But as her crush blossoms, she soon realizes that Ollie is not a boy or a girl, but gender non-binary.

Meanwhile, Ollie is experiencing a crush of their own . . . on Essie. As Ollie struggles to balance their passion for queer advocacy with their other interests, they slowly find themselves falling for a girl whose stay is about to come to an end. Can the two unwind their merry-go-round of feelings before it’s too late?

As much as I love the range YA offers, it’s important to remember this ranges characters from 13 to 17 or 18 at times. This is one of those times a character is 13 and I think that’s important in how you view the story. There’s nothing bad, but you can definitely attribute the naivety and the newness of puberty and feelings being worked out in a clumsy way that feels right for a thirteen year old. Polonsky does a great job of pointing out that it is a weird thing Essie does and in a gentle way pulls her up on how she treats Ollie and their identity. On the flip side, the circumstances of being more mature than a parent would think but also needing the guidance one can give is explored wonderfully.

I like that it isn’t normalised to start asking private questions, even if it is innocent curiosity and trying to understand. Sometimes you have to leave it alone. But it’s also great as Essie suddenly realising she might have to look at her own identity, while still lamenting why anyone needs a label and what that means.

It is a fast read, one clearly directed but it’s a good exploration of family, friends old and new, growing up and new beginnings. It’s not quite an introduction to gender –  Polonsky doesn’t go that deep. But it is a personal reflection about what it means when these feelings come up and how to navigate them. As one character says the kids are far more ok with it than the adults so it isn’t a big deal, but it still is something that requires understanding and as a gentle introduction this is a good start.

I loved that this story makes a point to constantly remove itself from being a book About Gender. As Ollie gets to narrate we see the struggle to be themselves instead of their sole identity being their identity. There’s more to being a person than their gender and it’s a fight Ollie has and the balance to be seen as other than the non-binary kid is real.

The story is told from 110 days down to the final days from Essie’s perspective then it switches to the same 110 day countdown from Ollie’s. I knew it was a duel narrative but I thought it was alternating simultaneous, but I didn’t mind, especially cause we get a speed run of Ollie’s since their side is less detailed than Essie’s while still getting their story in their own words.

This is a great book to bridge the gap between primary school read and early high school. It’s about starting a new school, finding friends, growing up, and it still reads like a YA novel. There’s gripes with parents, trying to grow up and be cool but still dealing with being children and discovering their footing in a changing world.

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I Kissed Shara Wheeler by Casey McQuiston

Published: 3 May 2022 (print)/14 October 2024 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
St. Martin’s Press/Macmillan Digital Audio
Pages: 356/9 hrs and 24 mins
Narrator: Natalie Naudus
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Contemporary Young Adult
★   ★ – 2 Stars

Chloe Green is so close to winning. After her mums moved her from SoCal to Alabama for high school, she’s spent the past four years dodging gossipy classmates and a puritanical administration at Willowgrove Christian Academy. The thing that’s kept her going: winning valedictorian. Her only rival: prom queen Shara Wheeler, the principal’s perfect progeny.

But a month before graduation, Shara kisses Chloe and vanishes.

On a furious hunt for answers, Chloe discovers she’s not the only one Shara kissed. There’s also Smith, Shara’s longtime quarterback sweetheart, and Rory, Shara’s bad boy neighbour with a crush. The three have nothing in common except Shara and the annoyingly cryptic notes she left behind, but together they must untangle Shara’s trail of clues and find her. It’ll be worth it, if Chloe can drag Shara back before graduation to beat her fair-and-square.

Thrown into an unlikely alliance, chasing a ghost through parties, break-ins, puzzles, and secrets revealed on monogrammed stationery, Chloe starts to suspect there might be more to this small town than she thought. And maybe—probably not, but maybe—more to Shara, too.

After seeing this book for months I finally caved and read it. At least now I know what it’s about and can stop thinking about it. The downside is I now know it wasn’t that good. This is a story I think may have worked well in a movie but in a book it sounds stupid played out.

Once you tolerate the Annoyingly American High School shoved in your face, the story is ok. I kept going for the mystery and the scavenger hunt but you suffer some annoying plot and dialogue decisions in the process. I wasn’t even a fan of the narrator, her voices are grating but the narration voice outside dialogue is good.

It is like a worse version of Paper Towns, and at least McQuinston acknowledges the similarities. But the fact that Paper Towns was pointedly not about tracking someone down, Margot was not someone who needed saving, just goes to prove this is a terrible way to bring it to a new audience because that misses the point of Paper Towns entirely.

I enjoyed the familiar scepticism that “cool” people only talk to you when they are lining you up for a trick or to humiliate you. I also enjoyed the real time evolution of the rumour mill and how even those who witness something with their own eyes start to believe what they hear about an event and try and spread it around. There was some self-awareness as other characters shoot that down. It was a new approach and I liked the pushback.

There is no satisfactory conclusion to this and it should have ended a lot sooner. Even with the “revolution” it felt tacked on at the end, even the few comeuppances weren’t that satisfying. If you wanted a grand reveal have it all happen and then throw in an epilogue, but the fact we have to endure the messed up life of a character, not even the main character, who helps her undo all her BS and her manipulation because she’s a lost fawn, was unnecessary. I’d rather sit through a wrap up epilogue that tells us this instead of having Chloe do all the work to save Shara, even if she does at least point out her crappy behaviour and manipulative tendencies in lieu of an actual conversation.

Yes, there is the whole suppressed high school, Alabama town thing going on which is supposed to be a justification, but it doesn’t make for an enjoyable read. Shara is not a character worth investing in, her manipulation despite how misguided it was isn’t worth the effort afterwards. Chloe goes through a whole thing tracking her down and it’s a lot of effort for no satisfactory ending.

The scavenger hunt part was intriguing, but when that fell apart the book wasn’t as enjoyable. The writing wasn’t pulling its weight and I don’t know whether it was the narrator or not, but the dialogue and story weren’t good. The first half was good then promptly drops off a cliff into the sea by the end. Four hours too long which at a nine hour book is just plainly a bad second half.

I am now unsure whether McQuinston is an author for me. It happens unfortunately and it’s happened before. I stop reading One Last Stop, and while I assumed Red, White, and Royal Blue was not great was because it was so about US politics, but it might just be this isn’t my kind of writer. But hopefully this queer, Sapphic romance is right up someone’s alley and maybe even the fact that Chloe does call Shara out on her nonsense is a small saving grace for the story. No one entirely gets away unaccountable despite their sob story.

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