The Fat Girl by Marilyn Sachs

Published: 1 January 1984 (print)/20 April 2021 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Flux/Everand Publications
Pages: 226/4 hrs and 15 mins
Narrator: Trever Goble
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

Jeff Lyons can’t stand Ellen de Luca, the fat girl in his ceramics class. She’s huge, clumsy, can’t throw a pot to save her life, and stares at Jeff all the time. But he’s a “nice guy” and feels terrible when Ellen overhears his hurtful remarks about her. The “crumbs of kindness” he tosses her way soon turn into advice on weight loss, college, clothes, hair . . . and, to everyone’s surprise, good-looking Jeff actually dumps his pretty girlfriend to be with the fat girl Re-creating Ellen is a labor of love, Jeff thinks. But as her pounds melt away, Jeff resents the happy, independent young woman he has unleashed. Where is the gratitude for all he’s done for her? With this darkly ironic take on the classic Pygmalion tale, Marilyn Sachs offers young readers a candid portrayal of what happens when the intoxicating thrill of control is confused with love.

I know we’re meant to hate Jeff.

I know we are meant to hate Jeff.

I have to keep reminding myself we are meant to hate Jeff.

I don’t know why I chose to read this book. Reverse Pygmalion grabbed my attention. Being a short read grabbed my attention. I was curious. But my god, the willpower it takes to push through the hatred is incredible. Kudos to Sachs for writing someone I wanted to punch more than Holden Caulfield.

Jeff is shallow, he is openly shallow. He is unashamedly shallow. I liked seeing Jeff get called out, his mother thinks he’s selfish, he is petulant and a baby. It’s great when he is called out. But the rest is rough.

Jeff is the kind of guy who would be murdered and there’d be no one to miss him.

Sachs goes hard. Jeff is almost hateful in his treatment towards Ellen (or as he frequently refers to her ‘the fat girl’). He is openly hostile and detests her mere existence, even once saying he was turning her “into a human being.”

It is a short read but it is a fascinating study into people like Jeff. People who feel they are superior to those around them and anyone beneath them needs punishing. That when they have their egos bruised even a tiny bit they retaliate, or worse, when they feel they aren’t being appreciated enough, or praised enough for doing the bare minimum, retaliate.

Ellen is the stereotypical overweight person. She eats too much, she’s clumsy, she bumps into things and Sachs really digs it in deep by mentioning Jeff thinks she smells. Everyone other than Ellen is referred to as ‘normal’, Jeff thinks he is a ‘nice guy’ and blames Ellen for him being mean and not making him a good person. It’s incredible.

We see a lot from Ellen’s side, we see her home life and explore her enjoyment of hobbies but we also see her vulnerabilities. Jeff’s mission is to improve Ellen, and she wants his help, she doesn’t want to be the way she is, but she lets Jeff control her. Even when he’s being nice he’s being horrible. His ego grows and he makes Ellen’s achievements about himself.

You see Jeff’s shift at the halfway point. If it took guilt and fear to change him then that’s a start. The great thing is Sachs doesn’t let him off that easy.

It is a fantastic book about making you aware of people like Jeff. If you come across someone like Jeff, run for your life.

Weirdly I didn’t hate the book, but with Jeff behind the wheel I didn’t like reading it. But Sachs points out people’s flaws well, despite the fast pace and the minimal detail and depth. You get a sense of who these characters are and even though the story rushes through days and events, you can see the characters in their elements succinctly.

We have no idea what is happening with other characters further than Jeff’s observations because he is so up himself.

¾ of the way in you see Ellen’s confidence grow, and my own desire for Ellen to drop kick him increased. I needed Jeff to be dealt with. The only shining light in his whole irredeemable life is she scares him into being a decent human being.

The blurb mentions the confusion of control vs love, and Jeff 100% loves being in control, and controlling Ellen. He patronises her, controls how she looks and acts. He dismisses her opinions and thoughts, he is belittling and tells her what she thinks. He ignores her protests, she begs him not to make her do things but he convinces her to do them.

The worst part is Jeff isn’t an idiot, he knows when he mistreats people, but he doesn’t seem to be bothered by it. It’s interesting to see the similarities between Jeff and his family: emotionally manipulative who get their kicks from degrading others.

The good news is you still get to hate Jeff by the end. I was worried, but no. Ellen and another character Norma escape, and we still get to hate Jeff, doomed forever with his mother and their desires to control other people to becoming the people they think they should be.

I was initially going to give this book 1.5 stars, the .5 because Ellen and Norma were the only sensible people in there. But then I remembered you can’t mark a book down because you dislike a character who is designed to be unlikable. So I had another think through and while I disliked Jeff, Sachs tells him in a way we’re supposed to dislike him, supposed to see he is wrong. Not pity him, certainly not. But we see his flaws, his mother’s flaws, see them trapped by their own making. Be grateful to those who escape it. I had to look at the other characters, not through Jeff’s eyes but through their actions.

Writing wise it’s quick, it’s basic detail, jumping quickly through days, but that isn’t a deal breaker. I’m happy with the three. I liked the story it told, but it a different liking the story than anything I have ever read. I hated the story but I liked what happens. I’m going to be confused about this one for a while.

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Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin

Published: 5 July 2022 (print)/12 October 2022 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Random House /Vintage Digital
Pages: 397/13 hrs and 52 mins
Narrator: Jennifer Kim and Julian Cihi
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Fiction
★   ★   ★   ★  – 4 Stars

On a bitter-cold day, in the December of his junior year at Harvard, Sam Masur exits a subway car and sees, amid the hordes of people waiting on the platform, Sadie Green. He calls her name. For a moment, she pretends she hasn’t heard him, but then, she turns, and a game begins: a legendary collaboration that will launch them to stardom. They borrow money, beg favours, and, before even graduating college, they have created their first blockbuster, Ichigo: a game where players can escape the confines of a body and the betrayals of a heart, and where death means nothing more than a chance to restart and play again. This is the story of the perfect worlds Sam and Sadie build, the imperfect world they live in, and of everything that comes after success: Money. Fame. Duplicity. Tragedy.

Spanning thirty years, from Cambridge, Massachusetts, to Venice Beach, California, and lands in between and far beyond, Gabrielle Zevin’s Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow is a dazzling and intricately imagined novel that examines the multifarious nature of identity, games as art form, technology and the human experience, disability, failure, the redemptive possibilities in play, and above all, our need to connect: to be loved and to love. Yes, it is a love story, but it is not one you have read before. 

I had heard praises for this book for so long, but I never knew it was about videos games until I actually started reading. I wish I’d picked it up sooner now. As a massive fan of Ready Player One I was curious about how this would be a similar love letter to video games but Zevin does a wonderful job. Not only showing how important, creative, and wonderful video games can be, but also how the human condition is balanced so precariously around friends, family, grief, and chance.

Zevin’s writing is incredibly vivid, this books reads like it is playing out before you on a screen. The other day, months after having read it, I was thinking of a scene and couldn’t remember the movie I had seen it in, before realising it was actually a scene from this book. There is fantastic foreshadowing but you never know it is foreshadowing which makes it even more incredibly heartbreaking.

The story is character driven but is also following a captivating story through their lives. It’s fractured and broken and strewn across the chapters and it is slowly pieced together as you read and switch perspectives. It’s skilfully told, interwoven stories and periods in their lives that reflect and mirror and resonate as you read. It’s fascinating to see the layers of their lives and the games they create, how their past and presents shape them and how those around them impact on who they become. Moments in their lives that shaped them, which tell a story of their own, are laid out before you and as the pieces fit together and you learn more, it becomes both beautiful and tragic.

An important thing to note is I don’t think you need to know anything about videos games to appreciate the story, or their role in it. There is enough context and explanation for you to know what is going on. The gaming aspect is very much behind the scenes while not being too actual game or tech heavy. It’s a love letter to videos games without being solely about video games. It goes through real history with a false history alongside and looks at the emotional and human connections that come through gaming.

I adore the characters. They are incredible realistic. They are flawed, compassionate, and human. Seeing their journey over the years and how the influence each other, adore each other, hate each other. It was wonderful to see the complexities of the human experience play out in a way that feels relatable.

Sam and Sadie are complex people and I loved seeing them grow from their youth to adults. From the beginning they are fully developed, alive on the page, and we follow their lives and their growth so intimately they only become more solidified as their experience shapes them. Secondary characters like Marx and Dove as great too, and Zevin balances our opinions of them through Sadie and Sam’s eyes well so it’s a constant see saw of how we think of them.

I read this as an audio and the format of transcripts, point of view swaps, and time skips aren’t hindered at all and you still completely experience and understand the wonderful story being told. There’s strings that connect that you aren’t aware of until they’re pulled together at the end when it falls in pace, but you are never left lost by the time jumps and the format. A truly beautiful story that is about an area not usually given the respect it deserves.

As the story progresses through the years you are reminded that the world was a much simpler place pre 2000, but at the same time post millennium has advantages too. It’s a perfect balance between the love of games and the knowledge of how impactful they can be coupled with an emotional journey through life and love and the universe.

 

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Repeat by Neal Pollack

Published: 24 March 2015 (print)/24 March 2015 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Amazon Lake Union Publishing/Brilliance Audio
Pages: 229/7 hrs and 06 mins
Narrator: Jeff Cummings
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Fiction
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

Back on my time loop stories and this is a curious one. So many time loops are single days, usually the worst days of a character’s life but Pollack has brought the story of Brad, and makes him relive the first forty years of his life, resetting the night before his fortieth birthday.

I liked the story, it wasn’t the best time loop story I’d read but at the same time it was captivating, even if it was a rough read. Brad is a terrible person, through cycle after cycle he becomes amazingly an even worse person. Of course there has to be a lesson learnt otherwise I think we’d all reach into the book and strangle Brad on our own. His language and humour is crude, and Pollack drives his character and personality really well in that as understanding as we are, you certainly suffer no sympathy for him.

The fact Brad goes through over “forty, fifty, sixty or seventy five” versions of his forty years, he never learns his lesson. One would think having forty years to work with you’d reflect a bit more, single day loops learn their lessons faster but as Brad ends up hundreds of years old he’s not trying his hardest to escape.

I was fascinated by how long it takes Brad to learn his lesson, and even then I was surprised by the conclusion. I expected Pollack to change more than he did, and even then he made the right choice. Brad changes but at the same time he doesn’t, which given the emotional and crushing journey he’s been on, it might have been the only way.

Pollack drops hints towards the end of the novel about how Brad came to be in his cycle. An inherently cruel time loop given forty years is an incredibly long time. I was curious at how he’d cycle through so many loops with such a long time span but he does a decent job introducing us to a new loop at interesting moments or towards the end and have the story backfill from there.

There are a few inconsistencies but they are forgivable, and as deserving as Brad is for his situation, you do feel sorry for him after a while but never too much. He is someone who feels his problems are the fault of everyone else, and while he knows he plays a part in his own misfortune, I never felt he was grateful for what he had. Especially when he had so many loops to improve the life he had he chooses so many different paths instead it makes you wonder what his commitment is to the family he leaves behind. Brad’s focus is so much on improving his life rather than himself.

There is an unsubtle author self-insert which was interesting, but Pollack included it well narratively speaking. It provides an external perspective on how the world sees Brad after thousands of years. Especially given the capacity for the human brain and the undue stress he places it under. I was glad Pollack address the brain’s capacity to keep memories straight and every version clear given the overlap. That was an interesting approach and one you can’t address in single day loops.

Overall it was an interesting read and a fascinating premise. I can’t say I wasn’t expecting more from having such an extensive loop, but at the same time I was intrigued by the chance to redo your life and how many choices would stay and which would change. Sometimes even with hundreds of chances to redo your life you can’t fully change the character of a person.

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Long Lost Review: Act Cool by Tobly McSmith

Long Lost Reviews is a monthly meme created by Ally over at Ally’s Appraisals which is posted on the second Thursday of every month. The aim is to start tackling your review backlog. Whether it’s an in-depth analysis of how it affected your life, one sentence stating that you only remember the ending, or that you have no recollection of reading the book at all. 

Published: 7 September 2021 (print)/7 September 2021 (audio)
Publisher:
Quill Tree Books/HarperCollins Publishers
Pages: 352/9 hrs and 36 mins
Narrator: Shaan Dasani
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Young Adult
★   ★   ★ – 3 Stars

A trans teen walks the fine line between doing whatever it takes for his acting dream and staying true to himself in this moving, thought-provoking YA novel from the acclaimed author of Stay Gold.

Aspiring actor August Greene just landed a coveted spot at the prestigious School of Performing Arts in New York. There’s only one problem: His conservative parents won’t accept that he’s transgender. And to stay with his aunt in the city, August must promise them he won’t transition.

August is convinced he can play the part his parents want while acting cool and confident in the company of his talented new friends.

But who is August when the lights go down? And where will he turn when the roles start hitting a little too close to home?

It is hard to like August at the start. His show off style and desire to stand out and be noticed is grating but as you get to know him you see where he’s coming from and why he’s chosen to put on these various personas. August’s different personas is a clear way he adapts who he is for the people he is around. It’s also a great way to show even though August thinks he knows who he is, he still hasn’t quite figured it out.

He has great character growth and the different characters he interacts with help bring out different sides of him, as well as shape his character to the reader. We see more of him around different people and see his active decisions in his behaviour, coupled with the knowledge we already have of his past.

Other characters are great, well rounded, and real. Mr Daniels is a tough teacher who wants to make sure August is there for the right reasons, while his aunt is supportive in a way his other family isn’t. The plot is slow, it takes time getting going but it does eventually build to a pivotal moment. The slow reveal about different experiences August has had help you understand him as you go along, and it shifts how you feel towards him too. His goal to reinvent himself balances against his need to belong and his need for security and friendship which McSmith manages well.

This is a great found family novel, and one I didn’t mind being set in a school setting. The unique location of the acting school was a fresh focus of American YA and it is a great exploration of different aspects of hobbies and passions. Dasani does a good job as narrator, August’s voice comes through and it’s easy to get immersed in the story.

It has great representation but it wasn’t an amazing book. I liked it, it had its moments, and it is sure to resonate with someone or expose them to a different kind of story which is all you can hope in a book. There’s a few content warnings like transphobia, dead naming, as well as the prospect of conversion therapy but it’s important to include as it paints a realistic picture of the real world situations people like August go through and is a great mirror up to some people and their opinions.

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169-Storey Treehouse (#13) by Andy Griffiths

Published: 5 September 2023 (print)/5 September 2023 (audio) Goodreads badge
Publisher:
Macmillan Australia/Macmillan Australia Audio
Pages: 272/1 hr and 37 mins
Narrator: Stig Wemyss
Format: Audiobook
Genre: Junior Fiction
★   ★   ★   ★ – 4 Stars

Now, Andy and Terry have built their biggest and most astonishing treehouse yet! It has everything they – and you – could wish for, including an electric pony stable, a Santa Land, a NOISY level, a kangaroo-riding range, a weather dome (where you can have whatever weather you want whenever you want it), a 100% edible gingerbread house and a potato-powered translation transmitter that allows you to talk to everything everywhere all at the same time.

There’s also a hall of funhouse mirrors, which is the perfect place to hide from Mr Bunkoff who is trying to catch Andy, Terry and Jill in order to send them to SCHOOL.

But Anti-Andy, Terrible Terry and Junkyard Jill, their trouble-making opposites, are trapped in one of the mirrors – and they want out. (Oh, and Mr Big Nose wants them to write their book … RIGHT NOW.)
Well, what are you waiting for? Can our heroes escape school, do battle with their doppelgangers AND meet their book deadline? Come on up to find out! 

After thirteen books the Treehouse series has come to an end. It doesn’t feel that long ago since The 13-Storey Treehouse came out, but here we are thirteen books later and it’s all over. After a rocky previous book I was so glad this one was back on point. It was funny, it had classic Andy and Terry bits, classic absurd logic while still being realistic in universe, and a great new set of levels to enjoy.

I enjoyed the throwback to a level full of Santa clones, a nice reminder of the slightly forgettable 156-Storey book. There is also a fun level with a treehouse in the treehouse. I would like to see a giant wall sized poster of each level because a treehouse level could be an open flat landing, or it could be an enclosed space with rooms, I have seen both through this series so it would be nice to see a definitive look now that we’re finished.

After thirteen books of antics it’s finally addressed that these kids should be in school. The principal is the typical adult who is loud and unreasonable. I enjoyed the depiction of school as something strange and unwelcoming. As it’s described to the trio it isn’t that far from the truth, but it is also described in a way that would be unappealing to those used to running free. It would definitely be a fun read for kids currently being forced to attend school against their wishes.

One of the new features I loved was the WHATEVER-THE-WEATHER-YOU-WANT dome. What makes Griffiths’ writing great is the way Andy and Terry play off one another and this new storey was a perfect example. The banter and bickering between them starts off funny, goes on long enough to keep being funny, but stops just shy of becoming too much. There is an unspoken self-awareness of how long Terry’s ineptitude should be and Griffith balances it great in the book.

A reoccurring theme is signage, the use of signage, and Terry’s inability to follow signage. A great repeating gag that works well. Terry’s antics are fun as stand alones, but there is something fun about an ongoing joke, especially when executed well as Griffith usually does.

There is a lot of use of the new levels, I always find it more interesting to have new levels introduced and them being used. Nothing worse than adding thirteen new levels and have them never seen again. I know some of them don’t always add to the plot and are very nonsensical, but a few books in the past have made good use of them into the plot and this is another great example. The mirror trio that come to cause trouble are fun and it’s interesting the way the opposites are shown.

One of the joyful things about the Treehouse series is how it defies logic while also having its own set of rules for their universe. Flying cats, aliens, translators that work for animals, and cloning machines make sense in the forest but rules like injuries and gravity do still apply.

Stig’s voice shines through as he narrates the host of characters in this story. I will miss his exasperated tones as Andy and his befuddlement as Terry. Not to mention his wonderful way of bringing the illustrations to life with his chatter from the various creatures Denton draws on the page.

After thirteen books it’s a little sad to see this series come to an end but in true Andy and Terry form it’s an entertaining conclusion to the series. The formula remains and is integrated into the plot remarkably well, it’s hardly noticeable. We get a final Mr Big Nose book, a great additional break in the fourth wall, antic, chaos, a lot of laughs, and an ending that makes you know the trio will be living their best Treehouse lives in the forest.

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